floatinonhope

I wish I understood why people are you quick to point out the mistakes you make and the flaws you have. I could understand if they do it in a nice way trying to help you become a better person, I don't understand why they do it all the time. Especially when I am trying to grow and become a better example of Christ. I get discouraged so many times, I start to wonder if the qualities are trully in me and why others see those instead of the others. I try to so hard to guard my mouth but it seems like I fail everyday. I get misunderstood and picked on. I am told that I need to trust that my friends would not pick on me and that they are just kidding but it hurts down so deep. I believe the reason why is because of my childhood. The pain I grew up with. What should I do I feel stuck. I feel that the way I will be remembered is a negative way and that scares me I am afarid...

Can you believe it only two more weeks left than the semester is over. I am one of the rare students who doesn't have that much work left to do. Only three more short assignments and some tests. This break should be interesting. I think I am going to Alabama to continue some hurricance work and then will be home for the rest of the month. I hope to work alot.

So to everyone out there who is struggling with the semester work, you can do it. Take it one day at a time and you will soon be done with it all.

Peace

So my break just continued to keep getting better. On Friday I went shopping with Heidi at 6:00 in the morning, it was so much fun. She kept asking me if I was okay and when I asked her why she kept asking me she said becuase she wasn't okay. We went to Old Navy and were being attacked by the Old Navy shoppers. Later on I went to see Rachel it was the first time I was at her house and her family is awesome. We went to see the light is Washington Park it was fun. Check on out the pictures on www.photobucket.com, username floatinonhope. Saturday I went shoppin with my sister in law and then went to see Rent. I loved it everyone should go see it. I think its is great. I had such a good time. I hope to spend more time with my neighbors this weekend and upcoming ones since I will be working alot more on the weekends.

Well I am home for Thanksgiving break if you can even call it a break. Things are going good. I just hope they continue. I have some work to get done tomorrow. I was able to see my best friend Heidi today she is so awesome. It is a great feeling when you can just pick up where you left off with your friends even if you haven't talked in a long time. Things are good with the family. Which is always good.

I think I have the best friends seriously. When a friend calls you just to tell you about a misunderstanding and feels like she needs to make sure everything is understood correctly, I think that says how awesome your friend is.

I also have just been meeting so many new and awesome people, they are really encouraging.

Somtimes I feel like my friends are my family.

What one word do you think describes me?

This was my third time going to the BASIC Conference. I feel like each time God does so much more than I can even imagine or think that he can do. He moves in my life with such power but gentleness. This past weekend I really heard god speaking to me. I have heard his word and buried it deep down in my soul so that this time it will not slip away due to the business of my life, instead it will be the strength when I am weak. Here are some things I want to keep close to my heart:

Don't hold on to your problems instead give them away to God, holding on to them is a sign of pride

Spending time with God is where everything starts, if you don't spend time with your friends how can you get to know them better?

God is my DADDY and he wants to be just that for me, I should have no care just as a little toddler has no cares because they know their father will take care of all.

Don't look in and be depressed, don't look out and be stressed, look to God and be at rest.

The 11th commandment don't sweat it.

I am not a dead man NO, I am alive in Christ.

Here is the newspaper report that appeared in the Times Union today. Please try to read it.

http://timesunion.com/AspStories/story.asp?storyID=415572&category=REGIONOTHER&BCCode=HOME&newsdate=11/3/2005

I don't know how many of you have heard about the Friend's Exhibit. Well it is currently set up at my college and will be here until November 23rd. I urge everyone to go see it. It will definitely change your life. Today was actually the opening reception for the victim's family. It was a beautiful gathering. One of the victim's mother spoke and as tears came to her eyes she told us that her daughter would be proud of her for doing this exhibit. She told us she wanted us to get to know her daughter through the exhibit and realize that any of us could be in her daughter's spot probably on several different occasions. This exhibit is so powerful, no statistics can do to you what the exhibit does. On Friday November 11 at 12:00, there will be a brief prayer service because it is the anniversary of the car accident. Please try to come if you can. Show your support as you learn to make a difference and realize the power of the choices you make everyday.

After about a year of wanting to have my own live-journal, it finally happened today. My roommate which by the way is the third one is three years thought of my username for me and I absolutely love it. I am so excited about having this and I hope a lot of people read it and more importantly I think it is a way for me to write more consistently hopefully. I shall write more later.